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{ ashley // SIHUI'
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Saturday, December 29, 2007!

HandWritten on; 11:19 PM

it just kept me wondering,
have you ever spare a thought for me like you used to?

you say you know me well,

ya i agreed. but that was last time..

but to what extend do you really know me well NOW?

you dont even know what i want from you at this very moment.

you kept saying i know you well, know what you want from me and all, BUT DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT I NEED?

you say you want me back

but what are you showing to me?

it doesnt prove anything that you want me back.

i just feel that you are pushing the blame on me whenever i dropped the idea of going back with you.
we cant even communicate properly now.

everything wasnt like before.

not at all. not a single little bit.

this morning,

you sms-ed me.

it was nice of you to show concern.

but what happened next, you shot me!

is it really wrong of me to tell my friends about us;the problems and all?

cant i just listen to my friends for advice?

i dont wish to regret anything and get hurt from anyone, especially YOU, not as if you didnt know.

once, i turned upon dead ears about my decision from my friends just to go back with you.

and i regretted much for not listening to them after the same old thing happened again.

what is the point of telling me SORRY now and said you will try to mend it back by giving you a third chance?

for what you tell me this morning..

whoever you heard the story from, i dont care.. and i dont intend to find out which close friend of ours tell you so..

but it was the fact that i did asked them for it..

but no one had mention the word spare tyre thingy to me..

i miss the good old times we once had.

but it is totally impossible now.

not after those mistakes you once made.
i gave you chances, not as if i had not.

not once but twice..

you left me ~~heartbroken and cried buckets~~ and do whatever was SO impt to you.

you and your unknown reasons of leaving me

or you can blame me again for dumping you aside when i was enjoying my life with my other friends.

whatever.

but at the end,

i still have to thank you for creating so much memories of ours.

thank you for calling me during my stocktake at the wee hours to cheer me up and all

thank you for calling me during my cab ride home when i was alone.

thanks and a million of them.

those moments will irreplaceable..

the sweetromance i once had.

你能给的, 已经不是我想要的了...
我要的, 你已经不能给了.